Listening to: "Burning in the Skies" - Linkin Park
Playing: Final Fantasy XIV: A Realm Reborn (Beta)
Drinking: Watered down Mountain Dew
Well, it's been over four months since I last updated here and it's about time that I quit avoiding the inevitable. A lot has happened. A lot. Let's begin, shall we?
This story begins in October of last year. Whether I have mentioned it here or not, I do not remember. If I have, then my sincerest apologies for my repetitive nature. Alex and I mutually decided to divorce in October, 2012. We kind of went back and forth about it in the months following which included a possible reconciliation. I finally threw my arms up and moved out with five months remaining on our lease. While I can go into severe detail here about the whys, I'm not going to. It's not fair to me, Alex, or our children. We have now been separated for...going on 3 months.
I had bee contemplating divorce for a while, as he said he was too. He was kinda just waiting for me to say something. Memories of my parents divorce, despite occurring over 10 years ago still echo in my head. I don't want it to be like that and I'm doing everything in my power to see that it doesn't. Plus, my family (even those I hadn't heard from in forever) decided to chime in for whatever reason they think is right to the point where I'm currently not talking to any of them. I know that's probably not healthy, but it's how I cope honestly. I've also been not talking to the majority of my friends, because it's hard to explain the same thing over and over and while I appreciate some of my friends being so eager to help...I don't want your help. I just want you to listen. Just an ear. That's all.
I became increasingly withdrawn from everything, including art. It wasn't from depression, oddly enough. Sure I came here every now and then, but it was just check on certain webcomics. I let my subscription expire due to the fact I cannot justify spending money on a site I really don't fully utilize. Have I walked away from drawing? Absolutely not! Those few who are on my Facebook know of my recent work. Not everything is posted there, just the works I feel like posting. I also haven't brought my scanner over yet either...so what have I been working on?
Catgirls. Action poses. Full body shots.
That kind of stuff.
Other stuff that is occurring is my car broke, I'm broke. I'm rebuilding slowly. Just bare with me and your inboxes will be flooded very soon.
Until we meet again.